Thursday, May 13, 2004

From one skeleton key to another

A quote I always wanted to post here for the longest time but it kept slipping my memory. "Warm coke tastes like piss." Go figure which person said it. I think it was annual camp sec 2 and it was said to edwin.
And just a nugget of information, a skeleton key is a key that has auto-adjusting teeth, so it can open any door which has a lock of about the same size as the key.
Loads of things happened this week, notably the 3 tests which I slumbered, struggled and ultimately got through. Spent the monday mugging for chem, tuesday I forgo econs s for bio test, but didn't do much studying, couldn't cram sacrromceyes-whatever-it-is-as-long-spellcheck-can-recognise-it into my brain, wrote loads of crap in the test itself, like what is a commercial use of amylase? sold to bio labs in schools for digestion experiments. Wed was the smu econs talk, the professor was good, although i slept, yangqi used his stuff for econs test the next day, so i guess i lost out. Speaking of which he led me to a merry good chase around bukit timah with me cursing and swearing and putting my hiking skills to use again.
I think nerves are fraying at the moment. I read something that made me feel sad, really, and I don't know quite why. I should just brush it off, since I can avoid the problem totally by doing what I've been doing all this while. But somehow I can't. I feel the need to speak out about it.
Ok, I'll be the first to admit our class isn't the best, we're crazy to a fault, and we all have our quirks. I can honestly say I don't dislike them, most of them I consider to be my friends, and although they irritate me at times I think my tolerance levels have increased since 01 times with DC and at home with my brother. Therefore I'm just saddened.
Mum used to tell me she used to just hang out with all her like-minded friends all the time and "despised" (she never used the exact word) others who she felt was intellectually inferior. Now, she tells me NOT to do the same, and learn from Dad instead, who could talk to anyone, be it the roadsweeper or a CEO and still make the person feel at home.
I never took that advice seriously until sec 3, and paid the price for it. Now I know, one cannot choose who you want to work with, same goes for a class. We cannot just live our lives with the same bunch of like minded people. No man is an island, we need to socialise and learn to live with people we don't like. I used to dislike those really arrogant people, but now I'm trying to tolerate them, as now i understand their arrogance is actually an extension of their confidence.
Haiz. So it would come down to this. Shinji Ikari's ideas of running away seem to be the best way out for me. And I'm subconsciously doing that. Know that I'm taking no offence with whatever was said, one has a right to say and think what one wants, and so do I. My belief is that we must learn to live with all types of people, and lower our expectations of others to make life more bearable to ourselves. I used to think that is a cop-out, and at times still do, but I guess accepting things as they are has kept me going. Maybe that will make life a tad more bearable. Maybe not. But happiness is something one feels, no one can make you unhappy unless you let the person do so. And I certainly ain't letting no stupid thing or people who are out to spoil my day do so.

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