Monday, August 30, 2004

Hero

Hihi, chem prac was fun haha. For starters, I wet my paper even before the prac started while washing my burette. Then it was so hot and perspired like mad. Then my hands were trembling when i was adding the last few drops to the volumetric flask. Then wanted to curse loudly when I got a blue colour when I was 100% sure it was Cr. Designs were messed up. Argh. I must say the paper was hard and well set. Kudos to the chem department. Still, argh.
On my way home, I couldn't help overhearing 2 RJ girls sitting behind me were discussing about their lives. 1 girl was saying that even in her home people judge her. Basically she went on and on about how life sucks.
Does life REALLY suck? Somehow I was reminded of the conversation I had with nick on sun about a person who always so moody and has a bleak outlook on life. I guess, to quote ms elaine wong, it all depends.
I think life sucks only if you let it. Faced with adversity, you can either tackle it straight on, accept it and move on, or moan about it and wallow in self pity. To me, the 3rd option is a non-issue. Moaning never did any good.
Of course, if life was so clear cut things would so easy. Sometimes you cannot take the 1st 2 options out. Life cannot be ceteris paribus (all else constant), the world we live in is constantly evolving.
Life doesn't suck. Life is what you make it. Life is too beautiful to suck. Sure at times things seem rough and bleak, but in the end everything will sort itself out. You still have your family, friends, people who care for you. Sure at times you can't tell if they really do, but they do.
Rewatched two towers and spiderman 1 again, just realised that they are really heroes we can look up to. Against the most unsurmountable of odds, they triumphed. Sure that's fiction, but the theme of heroism, the selflessness, courage under fire, bravery and valour is still very relevant in this day and time. For real life heroes we can look at olympic athletes, firemen, people who stick to their beliefs no matter what, nurses doctors policemen etc.
"There's good in this world worth fighting for." Heroes inspire us, makes us believe in ourselves, makes the impossible seem possible.
Who's your hero? Maybe if you know that your hero has made it through worse times, you won't think life sucks that much. They probably thought that their lives sucked as well, but they didn't give in. We lesser mortals shouldn't as well.
The least I can do is try my best.
For honour.
For glory.
For 01.
For myself.

Saturday, August 28, 2004

"The abolishment of EPL broadcasts constitutes a serious social welfare loss" Discuss

How's that for an econs s question. I wouldn't put it pass mr sowden.
In any case, I hope this gets settled soon. I don't want to have to cross my fingers each week and wonder if they'll be showing matches.
Smith is the man. He's winning me over the same way he made hate him when he used to play for leeds, with his abrasive and determined style. Plus he's no longer just a grafter in a (sadly) medicore team (mr sowden better not see this!), and he has added a frequent goalscoring touch to his game.
Chem prac. Here goes.

Sunday, August 22, 2004

Woman In Red

Can't believe I forgot to comment on all these stuff on my mind...
The Life section today was a bit chilling to me. I hope I don't end up that way. Imagine living your whole life, not now per se when one should be studying, alone. Sure you get to be independent your not bogged down by another person, but I think deep down as homo saipiens we're social creatures and we would like to have some sort of company. I could go on an Evangelion-inspired rant now but it's been there done that for me so I shall pass. Let's hope when the time is right she enters my life. Like a saccarhine sweet romantic comedy, those types where you can diabetes just by watching.
Oh and today channel i showed a nice episode of power rangers. Yes those colour coded high kicking do gooders from an embarassing part of my childhood. Anyway, in the episode i watched they assembled all the 10 red rangers there ever was and got them to gather to fight a greater evil yadda yadda. So it was just another half hour wasted watching over elaborate henshin (morphing) sequences, scratching my head over obvious loopholes (they were fighting on the moon surface without space suits... didn't know that the moon had oxygen), but somehow it was just a throwback to primary school days where aaron foo would do his stupid dragonzord impersonation and everyone would try to play the dragonzord theme on the recorder. Ahh memories. Watching the show made me realise how much it insulted my intelligience. Why do the baddies always shoot at their feet only? Why don't the rangers ummon their machines immediately to squash the monster? Why isn't there any mention of collateral damage? The list goes on... Oh well, it's a children show, all laws of physics and common sense go out the very large window. In any case, I did recognise some of the older series rangers (shamefully), and yeah strangely enough, I think I enjoyed the series. Maybe their black-or-white non-ambivalent characters made me live a lie until shinji ikari came along to wake me up. Ahh who cares, no use psychoanalysing power rangers. Hey I still do get a kick out of watching them do their super power calling out, machines merging to forma super robot, more robots merging to form a more powerful robot, and the proverbial I'll-never-up attitude in the face of laughable evil.
This is my 300th post on blogspot! Wow! Pop the champagne! But if you somehow access my archives and count the entries, there are only 299 published entries! Anyway, no need to try as I never link my archives haha... Boy do I have something to hide...
(this paragraph just screams "attention seeker who wants to be asked what it is.." but I assure you it's not...)
Well, so long, and watch out for the woman in red...
Respite

Destruction. Been slacking this whole weekend, or nodding off at most inappropriate moments. Sheesh.
Watched Man U beat norwich. Normal service was resumed at Old Trafford. Smith's goal was a beauty, and the fact that O'Shea and Neville played more in the norwich half than in their own says a lot about Man U's dominance, never mind the fact the scoreline does not really show it to the same extent. Plus, ronaldo is back, and in 8 short minutes he got fouled 3 times, shot once, almost created 2 more goals and pegged back norwich in their own half with his dribbling as they were threatening to equalise.
And Singapore ends up with no medal. I wouldn't want to be a S'pore athlete... the pressure is immense. When the camera closed up on li jiawei's face, you could practically feel the pressure of a whole nation's hopes on you. She probably should have won, but this goes to show that you may be more skilled but you can lose as what matters is what happens on matchday. Mental toughness is necessary for any sport.
Strangely enough, I feel as gutted as I was when Man U was kicked out of the champions league by the cheating clowns of porto. I guess that shows I'm still patriotic! National Education sure works!

Friday, August 20, 2004

On the wings of love

I just realised that this must be one of the very few times I used the L word in my posts.
I think I should start scaling down my computer usage. Or at least leave it till the end of the day. The cyberworld that has been an integral part of my life is going to take a backseat soon.
Just a few random thoughts.
Ronaldo is back! Now to give many a full back twisted blood. And things have started to look better on the injury front for Man U. Norwich watch out.
Also, forgot all about my testimonial for Nicky Butt. Another of the class of 92 has left, and in rather sad circumstances. In the end he could not command a place in the crowded central midfield. Not the way he wanted to leave i guess. Still, he was the fetcher and gatherer, the midfield destroyer that never hit any headlines, but crucial to Man United's cause in any case. I'll remember his header in the 3-2 match against Leeds which nigel martyn saved but had to be subsituted, and then he went on to score the winner when he swivelled on the ball and blasted it past robinson. I'll remember groaning everytime he tries to shoot from long range ala paul scholes, either he balloons it badly or rips the net apart. So long Butt, and thanks for the memories. May you play well for newcastle, but not that well.
Singapore Idol is a disgrace. I cringe to think that those 30 people are the best Singapore can offer. So much for a value-added workforce. No one particularly stands out, and I think I'm giving up. No more jokers to laugh at equals not much entertainment worth. And yes, I watch SI so I'm no snob.
Just watched catch me if you can on HBO again. I remember the last time I watched it was on valentine's day after palawan last year, with nick and mog i think. I remember commenting it was damm sad that on valentine's day 3 guys are watching a movie together. Also, after that we went to buy stuff for campfire invites. Murugan was complaining all the way about how we were making use of his sister's artistic talents.
Yeah, it seems like just last week. I could be typing this on a friday, typing about how crazy things are in RJ for the first 3 months, before turning in to get ready for a scout activity on sat. Then on Sun I'll be rushing some tutorial or going out to have some fun.
Oh well, just a bit pensive I guess. If I were list all the stupid things I did in the first 3 months it'll invoke a few chuckles.
Rambling on. I have nothing really worth saying. I guess this place will quieter from now on.
And please, for the love of humanity, DO NOT rig the vote for the prom king and queen. It is just too disgusting to think about.

Monday, August 16, 2004

Entropy of my life

Just some messed up thoughts I would like to put down here.
Last saturday went down to clementi to support deborah, went there halfway through her bout, thanks to my lack of timing and the turtle-like 7. Spent some time talking to assorted juniors, barney, eugene, yun qin and deborah as well. I also witnessed an incident, which provoked memories of myself being stupid.
Still, when I was there, things did not feel the same. I guess it is really time to let go and move forward. The place does bring back memories, nice ones indeed, but they are just that, nothing else. In the end, I left with a pensive mood. I wonder if I went there to try and salvage what's left of my happy memories, hoping that they'll be still there, but the truth is that they're gone, time to move on pal. And that's what I have done, so long and thanks for the memories.
Chelsea were dominated by Man U, no doubt about that. Although we still lost, there is a silver lining after all, and once the senior players come back watch out Premiership.
Everyone seems to be either excited by grad nite, or griping about the lousy location. I'm sorta in between, neither too enthusiatic nor whining. I guess the truth is I don't know what to expect from it. Some say it is an ultimate posing session, some say it'll be a night of fun celebration. I guess, as Mr Tan said, it's what you make it. It'll be the last time I see many of my friends, people in fencing faction outlook etc. before I go to army. Still, I'm not goign to agonise too much about what to wear etc. Besides going to pahang before it will do "wonders" to my skin (mosquito leech bites).
Another thing that bothers me was the suggestion of booking hotel rooms. Chalet I think it's fine, but hotel rooms a bit hard to swallow for me. Besides my mum will probably pick out the words "hotel room" and jump to the wrong conclusions immediately. Anyway it's a waste of money when you can go Boon Lay haha.
Don and Mog were discussing the AVP movie then I dismissively said that predators were jsut men in plastic suits. Don coolly replied that transformers were robots that changed into vehicles, which one suspends your belief more? That shut me up.
And Don is the man, he is very eloquent, persuasive and charismatic. Go and acquire the target!
Everything is going to change from now. My life will change drastically next year. It's time I bid adieu to all that I held dear before, and embrace this new chapter of my life.
But before that there is a small problem of the A's.
I am a soldier.
I fight.
That's what I do.

Friday, August 13, 2004

That's quite a mouthful

I know I broke my own promise, but this is too good a list to pass up. Behold a selection (yes only a selection!) of the funniest quotes coming from Beast Wars!

Cheetor: "YAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!"
Rhinox: "There, good as new."
Rattrap: "Yeah, and twice as loud."

Waspinator: "Waspinator find Spider-bot and tear him a new waste disposal unit!"

Blackarachnia: "Ready to rock 'n roll, insect?"
Inferno: I do not rock and roll, I burn..."

Megatron: "We have no time for Maximals now."
Blackarachnia: "When do we ever... except for maybe that hunky Silverb-"

Silverbolt: "Why did you save me?"
Blackarachnia: "Well, uh, there might be, uh, other... creatures."
Megatron: "Oh, yuck."

Megatron: "Ah, as I expected. The base is undermanned and unprotected; ours for the asking."
Quickstrike: "Aw, now we ain't gonna ask, are we? How about we just blast our way in there, and SLAG everybody and TAKE IT?!"
Megatron: "Hmmm... okay!"

Tarantulus: "You musn't turn your back on a spider! They tend to be venemous."
Dinobot: "But they still squash!"
*squash*

Tigatron: "You cannot fire. We have a truce, remember?"
Terrorsaur: "Oh, I remember. But you know my trigger finger; it just might forget!"

Cheetor: "So clue us in. What's it really like being a Predacon."
Rhinox: "It's like having three gigs of attitude on a two gig harddrive. No wonder they have personality problems."

Rattrap: "Pre-evolved bird-brain!"
Dinobot: "Eater of garbage!"
Cheetor: "Sheesh, and they call me the immature one."

Inferno: "As you command, my queen."
Megatron: I wish he'd stop calling me that."

Inferno: "Never mind the rat. We have better prizes for our queen! Return to the nest!"
Quickstrike: "That 'bot sure does talk peculiar."

Inferno: "Yes, my queen."
Dinobot: "I was not aware that you'd given yourself a new title."
Megatron: "The ant has some faulty programming."

Inferno: "Say the word, my queen, and he shall burn!"
Megatron: "Not just yet. And for the last time: STOP CALLING ME THAT!"
Inferno: "As you command, my que-ACK!"

Megatron: "Ah, there it is: the mountain."
Rampage: "You brought us all this way too look at scenery?!"

Ravage: "So, it was a trap."
Megatron: "Oh, no! Really?"

Silverbolt: "Cybertron... the home I've never known."
Rattrap: "Oh, man, you are gonna love it! I know this little place where you can get dirty mech fluid mixed with just a hint of radium. It'll take your head right off! Not only that-"
*Rattrap notices Cheetor listening, bends in close to Silverbolt*
Rattrap: "Not only that, but all the servant-bots are all walking around minus their torso-plates!"

Rattrap: "So, eh, where ya been, Bird-Dog?"
Silverbolt: "Uh, scout patrol."
Rattrap: "Oh yeah, yeah. Scoutin' the enemy, yeah... Find any new positions?"

Optimus: "Looks like Waspinator's been on a suger binge. How long has he been up there?"
Tigatron: "Long enough to make my head spin."

Dinobot: "Look! Down in the sky! Is it a bird?"
Rhinox: "Maybe a plane?"
Rattrap: "Nah, it's Optimus!"

Airazor: "I'm flattered, but hardly impressed."

Rattrap: "And, eh, what if he goes ape-slag on us?"

Blackarachnia: "Do Maximals always talk such slop?"
*POW!*
Rattrap: "My sentiments exactly."

Rattrap: "If there was a clone, where is he?"
Dinobot: "I'm afraid he's gone for good. A shame, really. He was such a handsome creature... And, quite tasty."
*BURP!*
Optimus: "You're disgusting."

Rattrap: "This ain't a security grid, it's a gym!"

Terrorsaur: "Stop slobbering on me, Tarantulus!"
Tarantulus: "I am feasting!"
Waspinator: "Give Waspinator more room! Tarantulus fat enough already!"
Tarantulus: "If Waspinator does not stop cuddling me like a stuffed toy when he sleeps, I'll eat him as well!"
Waspinator: "I'd like to see you try!"
Tarantulus: "Yes I will!"
Waspinator: "Will not!"
Tarantulus: "I will so!"
Terrorsaur: "You all make me sick! I can't stand this any longer, Megatron! I've- I've got to get out! Eh-heh! Ha ha! Ha ha ha ha haa-" *POW!*

Optimus (to Rattrap): "I swear, I can't take you anywhere!"

Rattrap: "You do know that was crazy, right?"
Optimus: "Sometimes crazy works."

Waspinator: "Waspinator has a headache in his whole body."

Waspinator: "Not fair! Waspinator always gets slag assignments!"
Megatron: "May I remind Waspinator that the current cease-fire applies only in reference to Maximals!"
Waspinator: "Gulp! Waspinator go."

Waspinator: "Oh, sure. Don't mind Waspinator. Waspinator just lie here and suffer, drag himself to CR tank..."

Waspinator: "Waspinator just flying around, minding his own business, when BANG! Gets whole stasis pod right up the kazootie..."

Waspinator: "Oh, Inferno blow up, Waspinator must salvage; Waspinator blow up, nobody salvage! Why universe hate Waspinator?"

Inferno: "There! That will be our new colony!"
Quickstrike: "Eww! I don't wanna move in there! It's got all them hairy critters runnin' around... Unless... Unless you mean we's gonna slag 'em! Oh, please tell me that's what yer thinkin'!"
Inferno: "The royalty demands a new colony, and we shall take it... by force."
Quickstrike: "Yee-haw! Now yer' talkin'! How 'bout you, Bug-Boy? You ready to rip?"
Waspinator: "No."
Quickstrike: "What?!"
Inferno: "But the royalty commands it!"
Waspinator: "I said NO! Dragon-Bot comman you, Subcommander Kiss-butt! Dragon-Bot not command Waspinator! Not anymore! Waspinator sick of being evil, sick of being Predacon, and Waspinator especially sick of being blown to scrap all the time! So, Waspinator quit. Hmph! As of now, which means Ant-Bot and Two-Face can just pucker their mandibles and lay big, wet, juicy one right here on Waspinator's big, fat, stripey-"
*BANG!*

Waspinator: "Sigh... Waspinator happy at last!"

Dinobot 2: "You have already read the Covenant of Primus?"
Megatron: "Just the good parts."

Silverbolt: "I know now that my place was always with the Maximals. May I join you?"
Optimus (watching Megatron fall off a cliff): "Well, I like your resumé."

Rattrap: "We're all gonna die!"
Everybody: "Shut-up, Rattrap!"

Rattrap: "It's like I always say, we're all gonna die!"
*Everybody looks at him.*
Rattrap: "I know, I know: Shut-up Rattrap."

Rattrap: "No power, no weapons... we're all gonna die."
Rhinox: "Yup."

Megatron: "Oh, come on now, let's have it: the usual 'Destiny and honor' speech."
Optimus: "Speech this!"
*POW!*

Silverbolt: "Our leader has charged us with a mission, my friend. And Silverbolt, for one, shall prove worthy of his trust!"
Rattrap: "Man, I just hate it when he talks like that.

Silverbolt: "Lest you forget, your Protoform was a Maximal."
Blackarachnia: "Just drop it, okay?"
Silverbolt: "But saving me was indicative of your more noble heritage."
Blackarachnia: "I said drop it."
Silverbolt: "Just admit that there is a spark of goodness deep inside you, and then-"
*Blackarachnia unloads a few rounds in his direction.*
Blackarachnia: "Shall I elaborate?"
Silverbolt: "Uhh... perhaps not."

Silverbolt: "Prepare to be boarded!"
Blackarachnia: "And you can prepare to be blown away if you don't get your tail outta here!"
Silverbolt: "Blackarachnia, I want you to come back with me, to the Maximals!"
Blackarachnia: "Grrr... Get a clue, you canine cretin! I'm a Predacon. I'm evil. I'll shoot you!"
Silverbolt: "No, my heart tells me you will not."
Blackarachnia: "Oh yeah?"
*Bang!*
Silverbolt: "You shot me!"
Blackarachnia: "No duh, Dog-Boy, I'm evil. Now do you believe me?"
Silverbolt: "And yet, you ensured that the wound would not be mortal. Your inner Maximal goodness prevented you from-"
Blackarachnia: "Shut up! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!!!"
Silverbolt: "I know how you must be feeling. You don't know whether to kiss me, or kill me."
Blackarachnia: "I'm a black widow spider, you dolt. I can do both."

Silverbolt: "Blackarachnia... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!"
Rattrap: "Sheesh, where's my cyber-violin?"
Rhinox: "Very touching, Silverbolt, but she's just in stasis-lock."
Rattrap: "Yeah, so if you could stop crushing her to yer manly torso plate, let's say we get some repairs done?"
Silverbolt: "Um, yes. Very well, then."

Rattrap: "Maybe they just decided to take a little break. Heh heh."
Silverbolt: "Were that innuendo not beneath my contempt, rodent, you would be required to give satisfaction!"
Rattrap: "I forget. Did he talk like this before, or did fallin' in love do somethin' to his circuits?"

Silverbolt (literally in pieces): "Sir, I'm fine. I just need to-"
Blackarachnia: "Shut-up and obey your commander, bone-brain."
Silverbolt (as his head pops off): "Yes, dear."

Dinobot: "You would unleash the full fury of this battle station on a lone anthropoid? Tell me, Megatron: where's the honor in that?"
Megatron: "You dare use the H-word to me?"

Cheetor: "You lookin' at somethin'?"
Rattrap: "Oh, joy. Cyber-puberty."

Inferno: "Royalty! Why was I not chosen?"
Megatron: "Because, Inferno: When expecting booby-traps, always send the boob in first."

Waspinator: "Waspinator detects stink of unnatural Transmetal!"
Dinobot 2: "Grrrr!"
Waspinator: "*Gulp!* Waspinator excludes present company!"

Cheetor: "I got a blue plate sighting in Tengu Sector. Crabby and Crab-legs, all you can eat!"

Waspinator: "Wspinator don't see why carrying Transwarp cells so important."
Inferno: "Every job for the royalty is a gift!"
Waspinator: "Ant-Bot is major suck up!"

Rattrap: "Why you ain't nothin' but a schemin' snake in the grass!"
Starscream: "Eh, flattery will get you flattened, vermin."

Starscream: "You've betrayed me!"
Blackarachnia: "I studied with the master."

Waspinator: "Waspinator to Megatron! Waspinator has female fleshy-bot, but there is problem!"
Megatron: "She'd better not be injured!"
Waspinator: "No, she injuring Waspinator!"
Megatron: "Ah, situation normal, then. Return to base."
Waspinator: "Waspinator wants to renegotiate contract!"

Brain is fired after testing so many hypotheses doing S8...
Basket, fishballs, super white etc.

I don't know which one to hate more, the olympics, or Mediacock. Olympics decide to screw Man Utd over by stealing heinze and ronaldo from their paymasters to put up a facade of a dog and pony show, since when olympics had anything to do with football anyway? And mediacock has decided to screw any tv viewer over for a grand total of 6 (SIX) weeks by messing up the television schedule thanks to the darn olympics. They oh ONLY and i do mean ONLY rescheduled those shows 10 pm and onwards, which happen to be the only good shows worth watching, and that includes OC! By the time it returns to our very friendly screens it'll be prelim period!!! Blooming marvellous!!! (I'm doing a great job keeping explicit vulgarities out of this post!)
Which brings me back to my favourite rant of the standard of programming in Singapore. Anyone who has a burning desire to watch my big fat obnoxious fiance whatever stupid title they gave that show should be condemned to watch gigli for 24 hours straight. Or make them watch the "all your base" flash for 24 hours. On second thoughts that is quite lenient. Why would any self respecting individual want to watch shows that have no intrinsic value in them except for (gross) entertainment? I'm no snob, OC is just pure fluff, I watch it to relax, but shows like these should not be occupying prime time, It is just symptomatic of a society which has a weird set of values if their idea of post-dinner entertainment was watching people eating extremely gross stuff, or reality dating shows which undermine the institution of marriage, or just simply 2 spoilt brats getting paid for acting more spoilt. Maybe every family should just switch off the TV and engage in a game of scrabble, that is far more intellectually stimulating.
Haiz, rant over i think, but I just don't understand why lame-ass reality shows get prime time while award winning shows either get banned, cut to pieces, or simply get shelved into the twilight zone timeslot. All we get as common fare are (no) talent shows, reality TV which i detest (surprise there), variety programmes (which are only slightly better than reality TV, I mean who actually bothers watching stars doing challenges on water?), or drama serials which are so formulaic.
Like I said, I'm nos nob, and being an econs student I know there is a demand for such programmes therefore they are produced. Still, I just shake off the feeling that mum is right, that a society which watches shows like Unbeatables and Holland V is in danger of being stuck in that level only. Or maybe she and I are just acting the snob again, only that she is always worse than me (ha!).
In any case, it means now there is NOTHING to make my wretched thursdays better.
And for the benefit of all those out there who think that banana joker is funny, he was a guy in the Singapore GameFAQs forum who got dared to do it. And he did. But he NEVER got to the judges, Mediacock decided to do some clever editing to insert that scene with the judges in it. Now you know the truth.
List of things Mediacock has screwed me over for:
1) CANCELING BEAST WARS!!!!!!!! (I'll never forgive them for that)
2) Their shitty programming
3) Timing of the practice
4) And now this
It's amazing how a humble tv company can make me so pissed off.
Thank you for listening to me rant. Have a nice day. If possible, send Mediacock a pig's head.
:)

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

I guess this is it

After talking to don, things do look better now. At least I can laugh at myself.
I guess this is it. I'll just last chance saloon it, exercise my 0.000000001% chance, then go out in a blaze of glory, and from the ashes, I'll rebuild a stronger person.

Well I been thinking 'bout the future
But I'm too young to pretend
It's such a waste to always look behind you
Should be lookin' straight ahead

Yeah, I'm gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah, it's hard
If you had've only seen


"Move On" by Jet

Monday, August 09, 2004

Claiming back what's ours

I was walking towards kinokuniya yesterday after dinner with my family. Upon reaching the entrance, I saw a boy wearing the new Manchester United jersey. I felt it looked odd, and on closer inspection, I realised why so.
There was no golden lion on the sleeve, just a normal blue one.
Then all the hurt and disgust came flooding back, before slowly being replaced with righteous anger.
This time, we're going to get that golden lion back, and how.
Just you pretenders wait.

Thursday, August 05, 2004

Head. Meet wall.

Only now can I fully comprehend my stupidity. Argh...
Just don't quite know how to articulate myself. Maybe for once, I am actually lost for words.
Things really don't go the way you want them to go...
Shet, why am I so screwed up? Nothing to worry about, pick yourself up now and walk on, don't look back.
I really have to ask myself, why am I doing this to myself?
Somebody wake me up proper.

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

Dreams, delusions, reality and hallucination all intertwined...

Ok that's it. If I have another dream about dinosaurs chasing me I'm laying off the Land Before Time marathons I have been having. In all seriousness, those prehistoric stalkers in my sleep are driving me mad. First it was a T-Rex chasing us in a yellow sports car with keng piang at the wheel (I don't know which one I find more terrifying), to a dark grey sharp toothed brontosaurus (or apatosaurus for those purists out there) chasing me in a jungle, and finally to raptors that could morph into women and gut their victims with their fingernails. What next? If I want a dream about dinosaurs I rather it would be about the Dinobots. Mum quipped that she expects that a stegosaurus or ankylosaurus will make its appearance next, and matter-of-factly pointed out that bronotsauruses are herbivores so they don't have sharp teeth.
Well, this is interesting, from www.dreammoods.com, apparently "To dream that you are being chased by a dinosaur, indicates your fears of no longer being needed or useful. Alternatively, being chased by a dinosaur, may reflect old issues that are still coming back to haunt you."
Hmm, the latter is quite true, some unresolved issues are always haunting me. Oh well, maybe it is just that I'm quite stressed out.
Wonder if dreams are really a window to one's life...
On a more saner note, Jay's new album is out and from what I heard so far it's good stuff, although a bit rehashed. I'm quite sure he sampled a piece of music from Heroes 3 for track 1.
So much mugging, so little time. Shall try my best, no way I'm going to let anything get in my life, not even a herd of rampaging dinos.

Sunday, August 01, 2004

Church Bells

How do you let go of something? Well, just don't think of it. Simple, right? Yeah, but if it keeps on popping up in your mind, that's when things get tricky.
Which makes me wonder if I really want to let go of it. Bah, madness. I really don't need this now.
Resolved to not say "i was like", instead shall say "my reaction was" as the former really reduces my intellect level.
No more PE, darn that means I shall become a flabby piece of triglyceride. Means I should step up my swimming frequencies. 4 consecutive laps of butterfly stroke feels good when your arms ache. Shall increase the number of laps after a while, I'm really out of shape with regards of swimming, haven't swam for some time. But still can remember the strokes clearly, I guess it's like riding a bike, once you learned it you won't forget.
Ran out stuff to say, maybe more like ran out of things I can say online. Just found out that Mr Zheng Shuwei actually reads this blog (If you're reading this now, hi!) and nick cryptically says a lot (emphasis here) more people read my blog than I think. That just means more people will be forming opinions, correct or wildly otherwise, based on what I write here. I try to be truthful, but the reality is that what I say here is perhaps just marginally more truthful than what I say in person. Still, this place has its purpose, to be my soundboard, whether for fanboy gushing or cryptic analogies.
To all those who think you know me, just from what I write here, you don't.