The end of an era
Sighz. My disrespect for our dear education ministry deepens. They have managed to get rid of the best economics teacher in RJC. Although I only attended only 2 of his lectures, I feel like I lost a great deal. All the years fighting the red tape and bureacracy has taken its toll on him, and now he is calling it a day, maybe for good.
I only feel immense sadness, then anger. I guess it is mainly motivated by the fact that we lost a very good lecturer, but it is a summation of my feelings against the faceless ministry that governs our education. Before this turns into a rant against the education system, I better rein my self in.
I give Mr Reeves my regards. He has taught for 14 years, and deserves his reputation. And I admire his conviction. Many people want to leave but never do so as they do not have the conviction to give it all up, but he stuck to his guns and called it a day when he wanted.
Sighz. The best "epitaph" i can give him, is simply, if I knew these were his last 2 lectures, I wouldn't have attended them, so I would never know what I would miss.
Some teachers really rile me up, some teachers leave a lasting impression on me. You only meet a few of those, and you fope you meet more of them. I know I met one.
Thursday, October 30, 2003
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
Instead of giving it up, why not give it your all?
Sighz, was moving the old desk away and scratched the floor and incurred the wrath of my mum. She really gave me the "hairdryer" treatment. Sighz. Oh well, now I have to know to be more careful.
Finished FFTA. Now looking for another purpose in life. Haha.
Borrowed King of Torts from jonathan. Quite promising, hopefully I can finish it by friday.
Things are hotting up, slowly getting to overdrive mode.
Let's hope I don't burn out in the process.
Sighz, was moving the old desk away and scratched the floor and incurred the wrath of my mum. She really gave me the "hairdryer" treatment. Sighz. Oh well, now I have to know to be more careful.
Finished FFTA. Now looking for another purpose in life. Haha.
Borrowed King of Torts from jonathan. Quite promising, hopefully I can finish it by friday.
Things are hotting up, slowly getting to overdrive mode.
Let's hope I don't burn out in the process.
Sunday, October 26, 2003
Well, not all things go your way...
Woke up early, had to see Dr Rajah. Hitched a ride from Dad to the clinic, and a beaming Dr Rajah checked me up. He said I was suffering from a tension induced headache, and told me to learn to relax and do not use the computer for too long. Slunk away quickly to avoid my grandparents who were marketing seeing me, as I do not want to feel the brunt of their nagging lest if they found I went tot eh doctor again. Mum grumbled that what Dr Rajah had said was what she had said and I ignored. I sheepishly agreed.
Lunch was dumplings, good stuff. Played a little FFTA, got all the totemas. Then I went out to Orchard Library hoping to grab a book, but nothing caught my eye and it was too crowded. In the end I was reading some funny econs book about Malthus talking cock to Ricardo. Went back home because I realised I didn't bring along my medicine, which I didn't take in the end.
Walked down to cuppage to join the guys for a by of LAN. was using Thomas Malthus as my nick, and as usual we were at it again, although this time less vulgar. Fabain kept on flashing me, his own teammate, which allowed Jun Seng the chance to kill 3 of us at 1 go. Damm smart. Adrian d*** shot me at point blank range but I still got him with a head shot with a desert eagle. Jun Seng headshoted himself with his own grenade. Go figure.
After LAN, we proceeded to Mogilan's house for his deepavali treat. It was raining cats and dogs, and it got heavier as we veered from HDB block to HDB block in the pouring tempest, wetting my prestos, lower parts of my pants, and my bag. Alvin tried to splash kenneth by stepping into a puddle, but only succeeded to splash fabian who was sharing the urmbrella with him.
After that soggy adventure, we made our way into mogilan's house, and proceeded to take turns on HALO on legendary difficulty. We played a bit, then had dinner.
Dinner was great, traditional indian fare, which was damm nice. Mogilan had to guide edwin on how to come to his house, an act that lasted 15 minutes. Murugan was lubbing the fish head upside down.
Halfway through dinner, nick and jun seng had to leave because they had to go and watch the mayday concert with *ahem*. Must find out details.
After dinner, we just talked cock, with LaU telling us his blind man story and his class videos, and I as usual being the one who was out-of-point and being GLed. Not that i'm not used to it.
Some of the stuff we said were rather contrevesial, so less said better. All in all it was fun to banter and GL each other, even if the target was always me and me only.
Left for home with a cup of ice cream in tow, thanks to mogilan's mother. I msut really thank them for their hospitality. Jay, alvin, murugan and I went home while the rest went to watch a movie. When we reached the train platform, we went up the escalator. Alvin was behind me. I turned in front to look for something, then when I turned back he was gone. Jay didn't know where he was as well. He smsed alvin, who said go ahead first, he had something to settle. We speculated that he wen to defacate, but he replied negative, and also said he would be in the next train that was coming. We hypothesized that he got on the wrong train, and I started laughing. We boarded our train, then on further prompting trhough sms, he revealed " he saw a chiobu and was stalking her", in his own words. Well, he is the King after all.
Went home to see Man United go dwon 3-1 to fulham at home. Damm pissed.
Typing this entry now, I feel much better, head's fine.
Tommorrow must get my new bookshelves up.
And monday is the moment of truth.
May I prosper in the face of danger.
Woke up early, had to see Dr Rajah. Hitched a ride from Dad to the clinic, and a beaming Dr Rajah checked me up. He said I was suffering from a tension induced headache, and told me to learn to relax and do not use the computer for too long. Slunk away quickly to avoid my grandparents who were marketing seeing me, as I do not want to feel the brunt of their nagging lest if they found I went tot eh doctor again. Mum grumbled that what Dr Rajah had said was what she had said and I ignored. I sheepishly agreed.
Lunch was dumplings, good stuff. Played a little FFTA, got all the totemas. Then I went out to Orchard Library hoping to grab a book, but nothing caught my eye and it was too crowded. In the end I was reading some funny econs book about Malthus talking cock to Ricardo. Went back home because I realised I didn't bring along my medicine, which I didn't take in the end.
Walked down to cuppage to join the guys for a by of LAN. was using Thomas Malthus as my nick, and as usual we were at it again, although this time less vulgar. Fabain kept on flashing me, his own teammate, which allowed Jun Seng the chance to kill 3 of us at 1 go. Damm smart. Adrian d*** shot me at point blank range but I still got him with a head shot with a desert eagle. Jun Seng headshoted himself with his own grenade. Go figure.
After LAN, we proceeded to Mogilan's house for his deepavali treat. It was raining cats and dogs, and it got heavier as we veered from HDB block to HDB block in the pouring tempest, wetting my prestos, lower parts of my pants, and my bag. Alvin tried to splash kenneth by stepping into a puddle, but only succeeded to splash fabian who was sharing the urmbrella with him.
After that soggy adventure, we made our way into mogilan's house, and proceeded to take turns on HALO on legendary difficulty. We played a bit, then had dinner.
Dinner was great, traditional indian fare, which was damm nice. Mogilan had to guide edwin on how to come to his house, an act that lasted 15 minutes. Murugan was lubbing the fish head upside down.
Halfway through dinner, nick and jun seng had to leave because they had to go and watch the mayday concert with *ahem*. Must find out details.
After dinner, we just talked cock, with LaU telling us his blind man story and his class videos, and I as usual being the one who was out-of-point and being GLed. Not that i'm not used to it.
Some of the stuff we said were rather contrevesial, so less said better. All in all it was fun to banter and GL each other, even if the target was always me and me only.
Left for home with a cup of ice cream in tow, thanks to mogilan's mother. I msut really thank them for their hospitality. Jay, alvin, murugan and I went home while the rest went to watch a movie. When we reached the train platform, we went up the escalator. Alvin was behind me. I turned in front to look for something, then when I turned back he was gone. Jay didn't know where he was as well. He smsed alvin, who said go ahead first, he had something to settle. We speculated that he wen to defacate, but he replied negative, and also said he would be in the next train that was coming. We hypothesized that he got on the wrong train, and I started laughing. We boarded our train, then on further prompting trhough sms, he revealed " he saw a chiobu and was stalking her", in his own words. Well, he is the King after all.
Went home to see Man United go dwon 3-1 to fulham at home. Damm pissed.
Typing this entry now, I feel much better, head's fine.
Tommorrow must get my new bookshelves up.
And monday is the moment of truth.
May I prosper in the face of danger.
Friday, October 24, 2003
Of what may happen
For starters, my head still hurts, after 6 days. Time to see the doctor. Sheesh. Must be the 6th time I visited him this year. Dr Rajah must love me a lot for the revenue i give him.
Deepavali, spent most of it asleep, nursing the stupid headache, shopping for groceries, having a large seafood lunch, getting knocked out by my father's qi. Was a real harrowing experience, like fainting while standing for founder's day. THe whole day was destroyed by my blasted head.
Open house was fun, but eugene complaing that some of the guides were looking at neighbourhood school people with incredulous stares as though they will never come to RJC. The ugly head of elitism has reared itself again. Had fun guiding a few people around, but was really feeling whacked after that, started to mutter nonsense to nick and adrian. Was acting like a poor indonesian maid to hanyan, much to her bemusement.
Been watching the ( pm show on channel 8 the last 2 days. For those who watch it, I'm not saying that it is good, just that everytime I see chen hanwei's character clashing with his siblings, I wonder if I'll grow up and become like him, having good intentions but never choosing the right way to express them. It is one of my greatest fears I'll grow up and become someone like that.
We all have a choice of the path we want to take, and I intend not to take that path...
For starters, my head still hurts, after 6 days. Time to see the doctor. Sheesh. Must be the 6th time I visited him this year. Dr Rajah must love me a lot for the revenue i give him.
Deepavali, spent most of it asleep, nursing the stupid headache, shopping for groceries, having a large seafood lunch, getting knocked out by my father's qi. Was a real harrowing experience, like fainting while standing for founder's day. THe whole day was destroyed by my blasted head.
Open house was fun, but eugene complaing that some of the guides were looking at neighbourhood school people with incredulous stares as though they will never come to RJC. The ugly head of elitism has reared itself again. Had fun guiding a few people around, but was really feeling whacked after that, started to mutter nonsense to nick and adrian. Was acting like a poor indonesian maid to hanyan, much to her bemusement.
Been watching the ( pm show on channel 8 the last 2 days. For those who watch it, I'm not saying that it is good, just that everytime I see chen hanwei's character clashing with his siblings, I wonder if I'll grow up and become like him, having good intentions but never choosing the right way to express them. It is one of my greatest fears I'll grow up and become someone like that.
We all have a choice of the path we want to take, and I intend not to take that path...
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
When we grow out of our childish shell...
For those people who actually come here, I apologise for my absence due to the addictive nature of FFTA. It sucks you in and spits you out only in the wee hours of the night. Then you realise you have to get ready for OH prep the next day and you rush to do it.
The last few days have been bad and good. I have this stupid lightning bolt of head pain, which zaps me once in a while. It hurt like hell on sunday, but it is slightly better only now. Haiz. This must happen after the exams.
OH prep is fun, working with hanyan and gideon brought its far share of laughs, especially wheeling boards here and there and watching them fall for hanyan, literally. I may consider a home mover as an alternative vocation and receiving so much training in these areas.
Monday's econs paper was fine, 2 questions which yangqi asked me in the morning came out, rather interestingly. Mucked around before going home to cut my hair, now it looks more decent.
Tuesday was more of the same, except PW really really sucks because the stupid people want it like an academic paper. With all the stupid bibliographies, paginations, citations and what nots, it is no wonder modern science is so screwed up now as the scientists spend too much time doing anal stuff like this. I mean, are you going to penalise me for exceeding the word limit by 34 words? How anal is that?
Today was fine, still moving tables etc, quite boring. But at least something quite good happened to me. Which I feel, in a twisted way, wished it did not happen.
Tommorrow is open house, a respite before i go and collect my results.
Sighz, I know I will not get any As. But just let me do well enough to live.
For those people who actually come here, I apologise for my absence due to the addictive nature of FFTA. It sucks you in and spits you out only in the wee hours of the night. Then you realise you have to get ready for OH prep the next day and you rush to do it.
The last few days have been bad and good. I have this stupid lightning bolt of head pain, which zaps me once in a while. It hurt like hell on sunday, but it is slightly better only now. Haiz. This must happen after the exams.
OH prep is fun, working with hanyan and gideon brought its far share of laughs, especially wheeling boards here and there and watching them fall for hanyan, literally. I may consider a home mover as an alternative vocation and receiving so much training in these areas.
Monday's econs paper was fine, 2 questions which yangqi asked me in the morning came out, rather interestingly. Mucked around before going home to cut my hair, now it looks more decent.
Tuesday was more of the same, except PW really really sucks because the stupid people want it like an academic paper. With all the stupid bibliographies, paginations, citations and what nots, it is no wonder modern science is so screwed up now as the scientists spend too much time doing anal stuff like this. I mean, are you going to penalise me for exceeding the word limit by 34 words? How anal is that?
Today was fine, still moving tables etc, quite boring. But at least something quite good happened to me. Which I feel, in a twisted way, wished it did not happen.
Tommorrow is open house, a respite before i go and collect my results.
Sighz, I know I will not get any As. But just let me do well enough to live.
Saturday, October 18, 2003
The End Is Nigh
Welcome back me.
It has been one nightmare after another, but somehow I managed to wake up. There's still 1 more paper on monday, but that is for monday.
I'll make this longer as I have been away for sometime.
Promos, well, only if someone up there loves me a lot will I do well. Otherwise it will be another session of "zhao yang can do much better, mrs Ng" which my mum will interpret it as I once again never put in my 100%. More on that quirk of mine another day.
Having some semblance of life back, been playing final fantasy tactics advance, very very addictive. Wanting to play megaman zero 2 as well.
Borrowed life for rent from don. Need more CDs now that kazaa is kaput.
My brother blew the other computer's power unit and thus he wants to invade this computer. Had to fight him off to use it.
RJ open house on thursday, something to look forward before the day of reckoning is upon us.
I think I don't want any S papers, they won't help me in my pursuit to be a lawyer.
Mum got me a guy's contact, if I'm interested I can go for real job-shadowing in a law firm. But she warns me this is the REAL thing, meaning he intends to make me swim in paperwork.
See if I can squeeze sometime out for that.
So many commitments, so little time.
That is for later.
Now for FFTA.
Have fun people.
Welcome back me.
It has been one nightmare after another, but somehow I managed to wake up. There's still 1 more paper on monday, but that is for monday.
I'll make this longer as I have been away for sometime.
Promos, well, only if someone up there loves me a lot will I do well. Otherwise it will be another session of "zhao yang can do much better, mrs Ng" which my mum will interpret it as I once again never put in my 100%. More on that quirk of mine another day.
Having some semblance of life back, been playing final fantasy tactics advance, very very addictive. Wanting to play megaman zero 2 as well.
Borrowed life for rent from don. Need more CDs now that kazaa is kaput.
My brother blew the other computer's power unit and thus he wants to invade this computer. Had to fight him off to use it.
RJ open house on thursday, something to look forward before the day of reckoning is upon us.
I think I don't want any S papers, they won't help me in my pursuit to be a lawyer.
Mum got me a guy's contact, if I'm interested I can go for real job-shadowing in a law firm. But she warns me this is the REAL thing, meaning he intends to make me swim in paperwork.
See if I can squeeze sometime out for that.
So many commitments, so little time.
That is for later.
Now for FFTA.
Have fun people.
Monday, October 13, 2003
Weight of expectation
I really wish there was never such a thing called exams. I am living a life devoid of all excitement.
Seeing file after file, TYS after TYS stacked up on my desk, the rockman exe episodes watched instead of studying, the feeling of hunger I always get at 12 am, which signals me to go get some food, the radio that kept me company for hours and hours into the dark of the night, the beer mug of a cup that I drink water from, the stress-induced stomachache I got from the mock maths paper which I got a pathetic 60 for, the scolding I got from my parent and grandparents for getting so stressed out and get that stomachache, the sheerness of the task of cramming all we were taught in 1 year in a few weeks.
And still the nightmare goes on.
But like all nightmares, you wake up from them.
Let's hope when I do wake up, it will be a much better existence than now.
I really wish there was never such a thing called exams. I am living a life devoid of all excitement.
Seeing file after file, TYS after TYS stacked up on my desk, the rockman exe episodes watched instead of studying, the feeling of hunger I always get at 12 am, which signals me to go get some food, the radio that kept me company for hours and hours into the dark of the night, the beer mug of a cup that I drink water from, the stress-induced stomachache I got from the mock maths paper which I got a pathetic 60 for, the scolding I got from my parent and grandparents for getting so stressed out and get that stomachache, the sheerness of the task of cramming all we were taught in 1 year in a few weeks.
And still the nightmare goes on.
But like all nightmares, you wake up from them.
Let's hope when I do wake up, it will be a much better existence than now.
Sunday, October 12, 2003
White Flag
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
I'll tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I'm not giving up yet, there ain't no white flag being raised. I'm going to nail you good promos, just you wait.
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
I'll tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I'm not giving up yet, there ain't no white flag being raised. I'm going to nail you good promos, just you wait.
Thursday, October 09, 2003
"I have...awakened"
You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
display a perfect fusion of heroism and
compassion.
What Matrix Persona Are You?
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I am the One. I once lived in the world where the wool has been pulled over my eyes by teachers. They strap us down with horrible contraptions called exams, which suck our brain power and life force as sustanence for themselves. I am the one that shall lead the rebellion. I shall the be the first one to fail, so we will not be subjected to their tyranny. Join me, in our fight for our freedom, other repressed students out there.
Ok, stress getting to me. If any teacher saw this take it in good humor please. And don't mark me down for this.
Tommorrow's the day.
Let's do it.
You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
display a perfect fusion of heroism and
compassion.
What Matrix Persona Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
I am the One. I once lived in the world where the wool has been pulled over my eyes by teachers. They strap us down with horrible contraptions called exams, which suck our brain power and life force as sustanence for themselves. I am the one that shall lead the rebellion. I shall the be the first one to fail, so we will not be subjected to their tyranny. Join me, in our fight for our freedom, other repressed students out there.
Ok, stress getting to me. If any teacher saw this take it in good humor please. And don't mark me down for this.
Tommorrow's the day.
Let's do it.
Sunday, October 05, 2003
Failure is not an option
Promos coming...
I feel like a general in charge of a small army, waiting the enemy armada to descend upon us, as we shall vailiantly fight back.
But I know I can do it.
I must.
but for now, just to remind myself of stuff, here is a checklist for my after-promo activites (nick sorry for using your list)
holiday stuff after the promos (official):
- Open House
- Metro SIF at Seng Kang
- Group Traning Camp (venture route)
- Choosing Postholders meetings
- Anniversary Planning
- Scholastic Aptitude Test (argh, a necessary evil)
- O-team
- job shadowing
- studying? I can try...
holiday stuff after the promos (unofficial, aka the improve myself projects):
- family holiday
- learn networking and wire up the 3 computers and laptop
- learn some more home economics
- possibly add on a few more chapters of reverse darwinism
- Matrix: Revolutions (5/11)
- ROTK? I haven't even watch FOTR
- restart my futile attempts to play the guitar?
- do a music video? i need more clips first...
- watch more anime!
will add more as i remember.
but before I reach there I must study hard.
Good luck guys!
Promos coming...
I feel like a general in charge of a small army, waiting the enemy armada to descend upon us, as we shall vailiantly fight back.
But I know I can do it.
I must.
but for now, just to remind myself of stuff, here is a checklist for my after-promo activites (nick sorry for using your list)
holiday stuff after the promos (official):
- Open House
- Metro SIF at Seng Kang
- Group Traning Camp (venture route)
- Choosing Postholders meetings
- Anniversary Planning
- Scholastic Aptitude Test (argh, a necessary evil)
- O-team
- job shadowing
- studying? I can try...
holiday stuff after the promos (unofficial, aka the improve myself projects):
- family holiday
- learn networking and wire up the 3 computers and laptop
- learn some more home economics
- possibly add on a few more chapters of reverse darwinism
- Matrix: Revolutions (5/11)
- ROTK? I haven't even watch FOTR
- restart my futile attempts to play the guitar?
- do a music video? i need more clips first...
- watch more anime!
will add more as i remember.
but before I reach there I must study hard.
Good luck guys!
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